Update

So, I have really been slacking with regards to writing on my blog. I may be the only one who reads it, but it serves as a sort of therapy for me so I should really keep up with it. I never updated after the girls' dedication ceremony. It was fantastic! It went better than I could have ever imagined. Both of the girls received awesome prayer, prophetic words for their God ordained destiny, and had lots of great scriptures read over them (the picutre is of people praying over Gracie at her dedication). I taped everything that family and friends prayed over them so I can't wait until they are old enough to understand and to get their thoughts and feelings on it. I pray that my lil Gracie becomes a great warrior for God and does not let the enemy stand in the way of her destiny. She is already soo observant and also very sensitive. I think God will definitely use those qualities to glorify Him. It was funny because one of the women at the dedication (who has only been around Grace once) said that God said she was very observant and sensitive and He will use that for His will. She said that she will see those that are hurting that others may overlook because of her observant eye. It is soo amazing to me that God instills these qualities in us at such a young age. I mean I know He formed Grace in my womb this way before she even had a chance to glance at the world around her, but it still puts me in awe of our Awesome God! Baby Adriana got a lot of fantastic words as well and she will be forerunner for God. I just canNOT wait to see what these two little firecrackers do for the Lord. They have such a purpose in this world (of course like each and every one of us!!)

Today I find myself a little depressed and stressed. I love my daughter and am so incredibly thankful for her, but at the same time I worry about providing for her and being the kind of mother God wants me to be. I feel I don't always live up to His level. I know a lot of my thinking is Satan trying to whisper in my ear his lies, but at the same time I do think I need to pull on the boot straps and be the woman of God He is so desperately calling me to be. I have recently joined a bible study that is being held at my mom's house. We are doing a Beth Moore study on Esther. We have had only one session, but I am already excited about it! It is a great time for me to get together with the girls and listen to great teaching. And of course really get into God's word. This is something I need right now because I have not been connected to a church lately so I am missing fellowship. Which by the way if any of you out there have any prayer requests that you would like us to take to the Lord, please let me know. I'd be happy to share with the ladies and have some awesome prayer warriors surround you with prayer. Also, if anyone wants to join, let me know! We just started and we meet Wednesday nights in Sterling.

One thing you can be prayer about for me is to increase my faith and release my fears. Fear is the opposite of faith and I want to be rid of all these worries and fears about finances, family, health and life. God called me away from my job to be a stay at home mom and even though money is tight right now, He will be our Heavenly provider. I need not fear about tomorrow because He will provide all that we need!